April 27, 2012

The Adjustment Bureau

so i was on my way home from the office commuting a tricycle at the street corner.
the vehicle was almost full, yet the driver still keeps on stoping every time he sees a prospect passenger.

we were 3 blocks away from home, and the driver picked-up 2 more passengers.
the woman who was sitting infront of me voiced-out and said to the driver "puno na 'to!! diba tag lima-lima lang sakay nito?!" (as: This vehicle is full already! only 5 people fits in each side in here!)

the driver answered her,"pito-pito sakay nito. pina extend ko ang upuan para humaba! kung pwede pa nga 20-20 ang sakay, ikakarga ko... para lang maka bawi sa mahal ng gasolina!"

the driver's answer to the lady somehow strucked me.

since it is already given that the GASOLINE'S PRICE is beyond the driver's control, it's either he:


a.) can keep on whining about the unstoppable price hike every week!
or
b.) learn to adjust and do something about what he can control!

it's just amazing... with that very SIMPLE INSTANCE made me realized about my attitude towards life!
yes, i WAS one of the those "reklamador" people (whiners) that you would know.

of course, we can't ran-out of any reasons that we can WHINE about, right??!
and guess what, when it comes into relationships, I WHINE ABOUT THE LONG-DISTANCE thing! (coz it's a new thing for me!)
 IT's NEVER BEEN THAT EASY! and IT's KILLING ME!

if the regular relationships  are already hard... then , multiply it into hundreds if you are in LDR... that's how HARD IT IS! :(

and yeah...i have already shed pails of tears for that matter!

but guess what? i got tired of whining:
i got tired of asking: why this..why that...why can't we...why we couldn't....

but instead, i have learned to accept that, that i can't do anything about it for the moment.
that's how things are for the mean time...and i have to live with it!

instead of complaining...
a.) i'm doing my best to keep the relationship alive....and do everything that i could for us to somehow have a "NORMAL" set-up.

b.) i have learned to GO ALL OVER THE DISTANCE especially during special occasions to spend and celebrate it with my man...

c.) misunderstandings and petty arguments are just normal, but nah.... and i don't throw TATRUMS anymore! well, not that much! hahaha...

'coz i have accepted or ON THE PROCESS OF ACCEPTING the fact that even if my man and i have been together for almost a couple of years already.. I STILL NEED TO KEEP ON ADJUSTING....

and because it takes a  STRONG WOMAN to handle things with grace, i give credit to myself for slowly growing as a MATURE person to ENDURE things that are difficult for a "common-people" to make it WORK.

well, just like the driver, i can also say that:
"if ang "normal" gilfriend, hanggang dito lang ang makayang "masakay" na pasensya....
pwes ako hindi! pina-extend ko pa...at pina-habaan ko pa ang pag-intindi ko sa mga bagay-bagay... "

"at kung sa iba is PUNO na sila supposed to be... sa akin naman is di ako napupuno...cge lang.... kaya pa... di ako napupuno!"
if the situation still ask me for MORE ADJUSTMENTS....there's  no problem with that....

keep on flowing, baby... 'coz no matter how HEAVY IT GETS, i must learn how to ADJUST and be flexible...

but until when?

well.. perhaps i jus keep on moving... moving...and moving...
until we arrive to our LONG-AWAITED DESTINATION.