smack it!

A couple of hundred years ago,
Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that 'til tomorrow which you can do today" he said. This is the man who discovered electricity.

You think more people would listen to what he had to say.
I don't know why we put things off,
but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure....fear of rejection...

sometimes the fear is just of making a decision,
because what if you're wrong?
What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?

          "The early bird catches the worm."
          "A stitch in time saves nine."
          "He who hesitates is lost."
We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs... heard the philosophers... heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time,
heard those poets urging us to seize the day.

Still, sometimes we have to see for ourselves.
     * We have to make our own mistakes.
      * We have to learn our own lessons.
We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore.
Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant.
That knowing is better than wondering... that waking is better than sleeping,
and even the biggest failure... even the worst...
BEAT THE HELL OUT OF NEVER TRYING.

P.S.
i got this long quote from -Dr.Grey (yah know..from that series)
i guez this makes a lot of sense, ayt? =)                      happy halloween!
                                                                           

DEAD END signs...

" i like DEAD END signs...
  i think they're kind...
  they at least have the decency
  to let you know that you're going nowhere..."
                                 -Bugs Bunny

this quote was sent to me from a friend.
i think it was quoted from bugs bunny
(yah...the "watz up doc??" cartoon character)

well, i thought about it for a while and said to my self na
"oo nga 'no.. sana may Dead End signs nalang din wherever road you go even in your life's journey... at least even in afar, you can see that you're going nowhere..
at least may time ka pa to change route... and you won't be wasting your time to go ahead even if  DEAD End na pala patutunguhan mo..."

oo nga naman... "DEAD END signs have the DECENCY to let you know that you're going nowhere..." but what if you've gone that far already...???!!
you know that the road you've chosen is dead end for you.
(in the first place, you know that you shouldn’t be there!!!)
you know that you're lost...yet you still keep on going... and goin'...
'til you realized that you've wasted so much of your time and energy...
and everything is so wasted!!

nakakainis 'yung ganun'!!! (it's soooooo sickening!!!)

you can't shift gear...turn around and change your route...  too late for you!
the only thing you can do is finish what you've started and hope that
after you've arrived in that DEAD END sign.... somewhere beside that sign, there's a little alternative road towards your destination... a destination that you've been long anticipating for...

who knows... there really is!
a short cut road to a place WHERE YOU REALLY SHOULD BE...

i need to BREATHE this OUT!!!

i could think a thousand and one reasons why i should

quit, and go somewhere….i wonder why i've gone this far…

i always say to my self that i deserve much better than these crap that’s been going around... I always wanted go away... but I have to keep going and finish what I have started… though i’m stagnant!

perhaps, it all started with a wrong decision.

…. wrong choice, wrong place, wrong people around me!

and everything else follows...

::: like how would you feel if you are stuck in a room full of morons who are unethical, uncivilized, narrow-minded a**holes???! who does not even know how to RESPECT!

and for crying out loud, they are even rejoicing for their attitude-- terrible!!!

::: as i looked around in that four-cornered room,

i asked myself: am i in an institution handled by nuns??

or am in hell full of demons around??!

i'm surrounded by undomesticated beasts who are dreadful!

i should've known this earlier...!

::: (nevertheless, outside from that four-cornered room is different…it’s much better)

there are decent human beings… who also have these distresses caused by those beasts

they just choose to shut their mouths as for the moment...but deep inside they also have angst like what i have... waiting to explode!

those ghastly creatures are unbearable!

i'd like to stick my finger on my throat and vomit  on their nasty faces.

but my stomach is too NUMB to react… and it says it's not even worth it

::: im not perfect. do i sound so mean??!

it's nothing compared to what these creatures have caused me. so much  aggravation ,annoyance, anger, pain... tears have been shed… and this time around, not a single drop will fall…ever again! emotional damages have been done… i’m NUMB.

::: no, it's not HATRED that i feel....it's A-P-A-T-H-Y. :::

Dear God,

there are so many things that I am so grateful for.

everything is doing well except for this.

but I know, all of these have reasons.

I can’t wait few months from now…

For sure it would really be far from what’s been going around.

it would be brighter…where I can really take a deep breath.

Thanks for those creatures anyway.

if not for them, I wouldn’t become a much stronger person as what I am now.

if not for them I won’t be able to appreciate and value simple things

if not for them, I won’t be able to distinguish real people from monsters

nocturnal illusions

All that we see or seem is but a dream within reality.
Reality is a momentary dream,
but a dream is a reality for an eternity. 

Humans can never see themselves as another see them.
Humans can never really understand their own feelings.
Human emotions are like labyrinth
that go on being reflected like mirrors for eternity.

the reward of pain is experience....... love and hatred.
what you see is not everything.
truth is made of different things.
there are as many truths as there are people.
what happened in the past makes a person what they are now.
some people are trapped in the past and some are lost.
face it and come to grip with it through  internal strength.

bitter & romantic coffee

(something to think about)

         

COFFEE
the blackness that its nature conceals
whether it’s sugared or not.
and unless you allow it through your puckered lips
and slightly burn the tip of your tongue,
chances are you can never guess


something to smile about) 

ROMANTIC COFFEE LINES:


Me:         "You're stupid and rich.....and i'm smart and poor."
The PRINCE:      "What the hell makes you so smart ?"
Me:         " 'Coz i wouldn't go out for a coffee with you..."
The PRINCE:       "What makes you think i'll ask you out?"
Me:           "Now, that's what makes you stupid...... "

new day begins...

it had been tough days for me.(read:STRESSED-OUT)
thank God it doesn't show that much on my face!
thanks to the good genes that i got from my MOM ('',)

there are lots  of "what ifs" that i can think of.
things could have been different.
--> but what can you do? got to deal with them.

it's just making it more visible that the real people who have been at my side, will always be there no matter what.
it's also surprising to find those whom i've just taken for granted are just there...    waiting for me... to come again.
sweet.

heck, i can still do whatever craziness that i can think about.
'coz i know that even if it turned out the other way around,
i'd still be able to stand up & learn from it.
and those people will just be there..... always.
--> 'coz new day begins......(^^,)*

                   words to live by:
          " we lose to gain, surrender to win,
            die to live, give to recieve,
            serve to reign, scatter to reap.
            in weakness we are made strong,
            in humility we are lifted,
            in emptiness we are made full. "

nabura,nawala...darating ba?

nang dahil sa virus... nasira cellphone ko!!!
hiniram kasi ng classmate ko... nag send sya ng picture gamit ang bluetooth... ayun tuloy...

nabura lahat ang contacts ko sa phonebook!!! as in lahat talaga ng numbers!!  'di na pwede ma-recover yun...  kaya, back to zero! hahayy...

::: 'di kaya  isang sinyales din 'to? (konek...konek...konek!!)
yun bang 'di talaga maiwasan na may mga taong dumarating sa buhay mo na 'di naman nagtatagal... at nawawala rin kinalaunan...


::: kailan pa kaya yung panahon na di na ako kailangan mag  "save & erase" ng nga taong 'di naman "forever" ?
yun bang  may isang special na tao lang na........
(waaaaaaaaaaa!!!) mushy...mushy...  hahayy...
::: pasensya na... nadala lang yata ako sa pagkasira ng cellphone ko!
o 'di kaya, dahil papalapit na rin ang... feb.14 ??!!  (tsk, tsk...) peace! hehehe... (^^,)*

late BLOOMER

Sometimes, things don't turned out the way you want them to be.
i'm talking here about the IMPORTANT matters (things, happenings, choices, people etc.)that have great impact to your LIFE.


when they turned out the exact opposite of what you expect them to be, they get so depressing...


(nakakapagod maghintay... mag aksaya ng panahon sa mga tao o bagay na di karapat-dapat pagtuunan... para bang walang patutunguhan).


::: but it's okay to feel pain...... (atleast mas ma-appreciate mo yung joy later on, diba?)
cry once in a while...... (outlet din yun... kaysa sumabog ka pa!)
::: As for me, just give me a little time to "grow" in this chapter where i am now.
and I promise to myself to turn things the way they should be...


THE BEST THINGS ARE YET TO COME.
DISCOVER & FULFILL MY DREAMS...
little... by little....
coz i'm a LATE BLOOMER...

realizations & weird feelings

everything is cool !!!

i'm ENLIGHTENED. 'coz it's CHRISTMAS ? :)

i'm a much better person now. hehe.. (", )*

circumstances are surprising me these days

and these are some of my REALIZATIONS:

1.) "we cannot change the attitude of others, but what we can change is the attitude towards ourselves"

>> keep cool always. if some are rude & non-sense, that's their prob!!!

2.) "give people the benifit of the doubt."

>> before judging, get to know them better first.

you'll be surprised why they're like that. there's "goodness" in each and everyone.

we just need to give a chance & understand them.

3.) "you cannot help someone unless he's willing to help himself too."

>> well... need i say more????

goodbye casper...

Casper, my puppy...

thanks for the memories...

for your cute ways of barking...
the goofy face that you gave when you got scolded
(coz may sinira ka nanamang gamit. hehe...)


thanks for the greetings every morning...
for making me smile... (nakakagigil ang kakulitan mo)
for your cute suplado attitude (so adorable)

 pasensya na if i didn't give my 100% care when you were sick.... :'(
coz i thought it wasn't that serious... i thought you'd get better soon.
kasi naman  you still managed to look as if you're alright- though you were struggling na pala deep inside. (unexpected)  :'(


::: your cuddles...


i'm gonna miss those CUDDLES...
I'M GONNA MISS YOU CAS..


(he died today: Nov. 03, 2005)