emotions- waste basket

cassette tapes
cds
                  candy wrappers
                  gift wrappers
breadboard
uv meter
                  letters
                  notes
notebooks
books
                  coffee
                  cigarette butts
slippers
stilletos
- - -
still there.....all cluttered...
could it find its way to emotions- waste basket?

3 Libras

3 Libras

(a perfect circle)

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million same.

Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed and passed over
When I look right through,
See you naked but oblivious.

..... And you don't see me

But I threw you the obvious
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see, see through it all
See through... see you.

'Cause I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Oh well, oh well
Apparently nothing,
Apparently nothing at all.

You don't, you don't
You don't see me...

You don't, you don't
You don't see me at all.

08--08--08

after a long time,
I'm back atlast.
from Beijing....
to watch the opening of Olympics
last Aug. 08, 2008 (or  08-08-08)

kidding....

nah.... we were just having a delusion that we're in Beijing, China.
(nag asu-asu mi with officemate tungod sa Olympics... hayyy...)

on the 10th day of the month, i also attended the wedding of my cousin at Bukidnon.
it wasn't a typical wedding. it's very unique.

the couple were both missionaries...so there were many foreign missionaries... and native- "lumad" guests)

as always...i was a bride's maid.

gad, why do i always get teary eyed whenever the bride walks on the aisle?!!  :,(


the way the groom looked at the eyes of my cousin...seems like his eyes were telling that he's the luckiest man on earth to have her! they were both locked in that magical moment... with saxophone playing on the back ground... (sigh......) 

Snap! back on reality.

i found myself on the seat with other bride's maids.

the pastor smiled and tap my shoulder....
and he said:

"Congratulations, you're the next bride!" 

Huwaaaaatt???!!!!!

i was dumbfounded.

shocked.

how could he say that??!
where did his "prophecy" came from???!

he doesn't even know me.

tsk...tsk...tsk...
so judgmental and assuming.
joke.  (hehehe)

oh well...
so much of that 08-08-08 and the wedding....

all i can say is that:

eight.           eight.           eight.

wait.             wait.            wait.

infinity.         infinity.         infinity.

uncertainty.  uncertainty.  uncertainty.

what dreams may come

it's SUNDAY, and i should be sleeping the whole day  from the saturday night's hang-over.
but, here i am in my office booth staring at the  computer screen with four telephones in front of me!

gone are those weekends when i can sleep all day... drink  all night?    ;p

mondays to fridays = work
saturday                = classes/ school
sunday                  = still at work?!

haha! not only that, im planning to insert  "sports" on my  list.... perhaps biking?

it's been a hard days night... i should be sleeping like a log
it's been a hard day's night... and i've been working  like a dog.

gad, i don’t have rest day anymore!   and why am i fully booked? i don't know..
it's just funny that i am working,
yet in fact, i rarely spend my salary on my "wants"....  (so thrifty?)

perhaps i just NEED to be busy.. really busy... to divert my attentions. yah know.
oh well... maybe it's good for me... maybe it's my unconscious way of coping-up?


for now, i dream of a real good massage before i pass-out.

zzzzzz....

time machine

all i need is a:
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.
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TIME MACHINE
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.
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TIME.

Chocolates, Smoke, & Decaf

i don't need much of material possessions,
for what good does it bring if at the end of the day you feel empty?

i don't need a glamorous life...
a simple, uncomplicated one with someone i love & care deeply would be enough.




i need to be in control of my time.
        ...‘coz all i have is NOW.
        ...to make things right.
        ...or to just bum around whenever i want to.


i need to escape from the hassles & bustles of life
        ...‘coz i only live once, and i need to regain my sanity.
        ...to just relax- sun bathing, star gazing, & go nature tripping.


i want to be a GYPSY
         ...to be independent...to travel...to wander...and nurture my soul.


i want to be like CHOCOLATES
        ...be sweet, fattening, and elevate those happy hormones all the time.


i want to be like a SMOKE
        ...be carefree, vanish, and be ONE with the wind.



i want to be like a DECAF
         ...be lively, restless, high yet grounded.




i'm a GYPSY.
...and i want to be like CHOCOLATES, SMOKE, and DECAF.

blue roses... i never had.

keep on playing:

             LULLABYE (by: Shawn Mullins)

...but she'd be a whole lot prettier
if she smiled once in a while.
'coz even her smile looks like a frown,
and she's seen her share of devils in this angel town.

"........Everything's gonna be alright... rockabye...rockabye..."

"........Everything's gonna be alright... rockabye...rockabye..."

"........Everything's gonna be alright... rockabye...rockabye..."


so, when is it going to be "alright"?

oh well... it's just a song...

it stays just a song. just a song.
.


SHIT.

Beauty & Madness

" i guess i could be pretty pissed-off about what happened to me...
but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world.

sometimes i feel like i'm seeing it all at once.... and it's too much!!!

my heart fills up like a balloon... that's about to burst!!!

and then i remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it.
and then it flows through me like rain... and i can't feel anything but gratitude
for every single moment of my stupid little life...

you have no idea what i'm talking about, i'm sure.
but don't worry...... you will someday.  "

think again.

i wish it was just a bad dream.

a nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nobody wanted that to happen.
.
.

so, you think you all know everything about what happened that time....?????
.
.

think again.

impossible is nothing

IMPOSSIBLE is just a big word
thrown by small men who find it easier
to live in the world they've been given
than to explore the power they have to change it.


IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A FACT.
IT'S AN OPINION.

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A DECLARATION.
IT'S A DARE.

impossible is potential.
impossible is temporary.


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IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.