realizations & weird feelings

everything is cool !!!

i'm ENLIGHTENED. 'coz it's CHRISTMAS ? :)

i'm a much better person now. hehe.. (", )*

circumstances are surprising me these days

and these are some of my REALIZATIONS:

1.) "we cannot change the attitude of others, but what we can change is the attitude towards ourselves"

>> keep cool always. if some are rude & non-sense, that's their prob!!!

2.) "give people the benifit of the doubt."

>> before judging, get to know them better first.

you'll be surprised why they're like that. there's "goodness" in each and everyone.

we just need to give a chance & understand them.

3.) "you cannot help someone unless he's willing to help himself too."

>> well... need i say more????

goodbye casper...

Casper, my puppy...

thanks for the memories...

for your cute ways of barking...
the goofy face that you gave when you got scolded
(coz may sinira ka nanamang gamit. hehe...)


thanks for the greetings every morning...
for making me smile... (nakakagigil ang kakulitan mo)
for your cute suplado attitude (so adorable)

 pasensya na if i didn't give my 100% care when you were sick.... :'(
coz i thought it wasn't that serious... i thought you'd get better soon.
kasi naman  you still managed to look as if you're alright- though you were struggling na pala deep inside. (unexpected)  :'(


::: your cuddles...


i'm gonna miss those CUDDLES...
I'M GONNA MISS YOU CAS..


(he died today: Nov. 03, 2005)

tahooo!!!

today, i woke up late again.
suddenly i heard Mamang Taho shouting "Tahoooo!!"
so i asked my dad to buy a cup for me. 
yes! for how many years i can taste again a taho.
weird ba? :)
yah, i know it's a cheap thrill.
but hey! it's my favorite treat when i was still
a little child. (more than those dirty ice cream- hehe..)
::: i can still remember when Nestle intoduced their taho product
years ago (it's packed like in a yoghurt container) and it tasted awful!!!
well... nothing beats ManongTaho.. :)
wala lang...may nabasa kasi ako before that SOYA could help you grow taller. maybe it's a trivial reason why i was hooked up w/taho. (hoping- i could grow taller) hehe..

::: hmm... forget about that height thingy. i'm already happy w/my petite built (ahemm!) :)
but as for now, i'll enjoy the taste of taho and reminisce those childhood days. 

...those innocent days when i was oh sooo carefree!!!

awww.  :) 

yes.. weird...but i feel sooo good!!! hehe… :)

...myself, on being -emo- (arrgh!!)

There she is- a young lady. She’s strong, yet fragile.
Used to be sure of the things she wanted, yet now- so uncertain.

Shattered into infinite pieces…

How can she be so sensitive when she has to be strong? How can be so vulnerable when she used to be a fighter? But what can she do? All the vicious things are locked up inside.

Let her cry… for she is still a child inside.
There’s always this “child” inside in each and every one of us.
sob… dream… whimper some more… and for a while, she feels uplifted now.
When everything else falls, nothing could be much better than having a home that you could turn to.
“There’s no place like home.” It’s where her heart belongs. Where she can be just herself and feel so carefree. A home where she feels all the love she ever needed. She’s still blessed having a place she can run to whenever she wanted to take a deep breath, recharge, and bring back her sanity.

::: When you think that everything else seems so wrong, think again…

Things aren’t so bad after all. It’s nice to know that after a long tough day, you’ll be coming back to a place where you feel safe and invincible. A place called home


Tomorrow is another fresh start. You have a stronger fighting spirit… ready to beat whatever obstacles that lies ahead. Painting a smile on your face… for tomorrow would be much brighter. That’s for sure.

You are blessed with a home to live and a wonderful family living together.
That’s enough to keep you sane... enough to keep you going. That’s all that matters.

xx- chocolat -xx

So, what’s a gal got to do when hit by blues?

When mood swings and confusion’s stirring up?

Simple. Just a grab a chocolate bar and discover its wonders.

The blast of almond, nuts, & caramel will explode your worries and anxiousness.

Feel the chocolate slowly melt in your mouth as it also dissolve

the uncertainties and heart aches at the same time.

Enjoy its sweetness that kisses away the bitterness that's been locked up inside.

No reason to get depressed pretty gal.

Another option also include: ice cream, candies (jelly beans & gummy bears),

or a shot of tequila perhaps??? (girl, call me..& let's drown our sorrows... HAHA!:)

weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

ONE GOOD DAY COMING –UP!   ^_^

parisukat at tatsulok

mga hugis na nagsisimbolo ng aking nararamdaman.

parisukat:
isang anyo na may apat na gilid na parehong sukat. square.
mga emosyong 'di ko maintindihan.
pilit na hinahanapan ng mga posibleng kasagutan,
ano? bakit?  sino? saan? kelan? paano?
nag-iiwan lang ito ng bagabag sa aking isipan.
na tulad ng isang parisukat.

tatsulok:
isang anyo na may tatlong linyang pinagdugtong. triangle.
parang bersyon ng isang dimensyon ng Egypt pyramid.
ngunit, kahit saang aspekto ko man tingnan,
mga gilid nito ay nakakatusok... sa aking marupok na puso.
masaya. malungkot. ako yata ay naliligaw.
ang naikagaganda lang, ang tatsulok kong ito ay matatag.
mga paa ay nagsisilbing suporta. ang tuktok nito ay nakaturo sa itaas.
na para bagang inaabot--- ang kalangitan... ang walang hanggan.

nakakapanibughong emosyon ko... parisukat at tatsulok.

Nakakabaliw!!!

i'm still stuck up in school dealing w/ complicated math problems.
Signals & Spectra gives me headache and heart aches (?)...
i can't  relate w/ this subject. it's pain in my ass. (w/ 'Mr.Automatic' prof- oh no!)
my 1st quiz was terrible!! (well, majority of us got low score)
(to think that we've just started,
how much more in midterms & finals???) huhu... ='(
....kung nakaka-usap lang sana ang mga numero at magsabi                           
kung anong tamang sagot,eh 'di na sana sasakit ulo ko. =(
ngunit, sadyang pipi ang mga numero...'di ko nalang pipilitin.
baka kung nagkataon, labas ko na ay baliw.
hayyy... o baka naman baliw na nga? haha! lol! ; )
(madaan na nga lang sa tawa!....) hehehe...

BLURED

If you smile at them,
       They think pa-cute ka.
If you don’t naman,
       Sasabihan kang suplada

If you respond to his love agad,
        They think you’re easy to get
If it took you years to decide,
        Sobra kang pa-hard to get.

If you go-out with him alone,
        Sasabihan kang liberated
Kapag may chaperon along,
         Bad-trip kasi madi-disturb.

‘Pag stick ka sa kanya,
        they’ll proclaim you’re dead na dead
If you ask him where he’s been,
        Sasabihan kang over protective.
‘Pag pinabayaan mo naman,
        they’ll think you’re fooling lang

if you let him kiss you,
        he thinks you’re cheap
if you refuse naman,
        he’ll go find another chick.

Girls are just human,
        May mistakes din
And we often wonder, " ba't ang labo n'yo MEN ??! "

me,mysef,& I

Hellooo there!!! (",)&

Welcome to my blog...

caution: this blog is just the "tip of the iceberg"

a tiny reflection of myself...

there's soOoOoo much more to find out!!!

Name: Zhandra L. Olaivar

Birthday: June 04

Location: Davao City

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      of my thoughts/emotions, of whatever things...

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