" muted "

for the past two days, i literally don't have a "V-O-I-C-E"
with: cough, flu, back aches... and other aches, such as: ka ek-ekan? hehe...
this is due to:

• 1. weather condition
  2. my regular job # 1 which also includes answering phone calls, and attending employees' needs
  3. my part time job # 2 which requires explaining (individually)
  4. my part time job # 3 which requires conducting group seminar/ training... in short, TALKING....

it's hard when you don't have a voice. although i am not really that "talkative", it seems like i am now  "muted".
because of this:

• ...when communicating at the office, i just chat them.
• ...when communicating with my friends, i just text them
• ...when commuting on public vehicle, i just tap using a coin
  to stop at my destination. 

it's hard NOT to express myself thru words at anytime i wanted  to.

but then, if ever we had the chance to meet and talk...

i will just let my EYES do all the talking,
and perhaps i would really, really force my esophagus and larynx

...just to whisper " i miss you"

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 damn.

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