sana TAKE-OUT nalang

katatapos ko lang manood ng palabas sa dvd...
actually, di ko na tinapos.  sobrang mushy kasi ng storya..
alam ko rin naman ang ending. typical na boy-meets girl-happy-mushy-ending.
eh sila-sila lang naman ang kini-kilig dun.
eh bakit ba? wala ako sa mood para kiligin ngayon noh!

12:30 na pala ng madaling araw.
gusto kong kumain ng mid-night snack.. yung mainit sana na sopas.
so, umalis muna ako saglit ng bahay...
at tumungo ako mag-isa sa 24-hours open na pagkainan...at nag order.

"yes,  one congee... buchi...and brewed coffee please..."

dun ako umupo sa gitnang dulo.
habang hinihintay kong lumamig konti ang mainit na congee.

nahulog yung kutsara ko... kaya tumungo ako sa counter para humingi ng bago..at bumalik sa aking table.

buti pa 'tong kutsara... palaging may tinidor sa tabi.

napatingin ako sa aking harapan.
may isang ale na mag-isa rin. parang walang paki-alam sa mundo..
basta ang alam nya eh lasap na lasap sya sa kanyang pagkain.

buti pa yung siopao nya o... may partner na ketsup.

sa kaliwang table ko naman...  may magsing-irog...
na parang pinag-dikit ng glue ang upuan.
eto naman sila o... madaling araw na...
nagsusubuan pa ng kanilang order na noodles.

sinabayan pa talaga ng "it might be you" na music sa back ground.

waaaaaa!!! sabi ko nga wala ako sa mood para sa kilig-kilig na yan noh.
ang gusto ko lang ay kumain...  period.

kaya, tumingin nalang ako sa sarili kong mesa.
at nag umpisang kumain ng congee...habang nilalagyan ng iba pang sangkap na pampalasa.
buti pa 'tong toyo... may kasamang patis.

buti pa yung paminta sa gilid ng mesa... may katabing asin.

buti pa 'tong buchi ko... may partner na filling sa loob... kaya matamis.
buti pa 'tong kape ko... may creamer... kaya sakto ang lasa.

waaaaaa!!!! ano ba naman 'to... tigilan nyo ako ha....

so, tumingin nalang ako sa aking kanan... sa glass window.
napansin kong may isang pulang langgam na nilalasap ang kanyang pagkain...

...na mag-isa.

...'yun ang akala ko.

maya-maya lang... may papalapit din na isang langgam.
nag beso-beso pa ang mga ito ng dumating...
at sabay na silang dalawa nagsalo sa pagkain.
:
sheeeeeet naman...

sana nag take-out nalang ako!!!! ^_^

catch 22

A good friend of mine suddenly keep in touch.
after how many years, finally,we had an update on each other's lives.
the original plan was to just have merienda and watch movie.
but we realized that time wasn't enough...and we just kept talking...and talking.
so we cancelled the movie...which until now i'm dying to watch!

[ oh my ever pirate... Johnny Depp! (^^,)* ]

our quotable quotes: 

Kara:    kabalo ka...i have so many probs right now.

            my life is so stressful!
Me:      sus uy...you're still talkative and jolly...
            you look glowing. you don't look stressed-out noh!
Kara:     yeah, maybe because i'm composed...but i am stressed.
Me:      ako pa siguro...mukhang stressed!
            thank God it's new chapter at last!
            but yah know...i'm still in the midst of picking up the pieces
Kara:    same dilemma jud diay ta karon noh?
            don't worry, we will soon be back on track.
---
Me:      so, howz your love life diay?
Kara:   wala jud koy panahon ana noh!
Me:      sus! unsaon nalang ni...
           when we're finally ready...all good guys are taken already by that time!
Kara:   bitaw noh... matrona na ang labas nako ani puhon...
           as they say... we will be left with good guys who have no money!
Me:      ikaw jud...
           no...we will be left with good guys...who have money... but are gays!
Kara:    hehehe... old maid nalang ko uy!
           then, hanap ko boylet when that happens.
Me:      ala- Madam Auring nalang ba??! hehehe
---
Me:      i could still remember you were foreseen by the batch
           as a future lawyer or politician.
Kara:    bitaw noh... hayyyy... those days.
Me:     lagi...you're very outspoken regarding social issues
           you talk like Miriam Defensor Santiago pa jud! remember?? hehe...
Kara:    i want to try something different
Me:       so, you won't pursue law school anymore??!
Kara:    it's complicated... you, what you wanna pursue?
Me:      (silent....)
---

Me:      so, soul- searching ka rin pala?!
            unsa-on man diay na...?
Kara:   maybe you just think what you really want to do.
           wherein you see meaning on it.
Me:      may signs ba yan when you found it?
Kara:    maybe.
:
-------> it's funny to think that, at that time, we're like two little girls gazing at the sky... waiting for the rainbow to come after the rain.

RYLA summer camp

when i was told by my mom that i was chosen to be one of the
representatives for the RYLA summer camp sponsored by their 
ROTARY Club, i thought it would be just "plain fine". since i love nature, and the "forest" setting, i thought  okay...i'll give it a try for this summer.
i had no preparation at all.

but when i got there, oh my! i did not expect it would be an extraordinary great experience! =)

the delegates were actually young.......and i'm one of those "young at hearts". hehe...

we stayed at Eden Nature Park for 5 days & 4 nights.
and surprisingly, we really had so much fun!


the food: lutong bahay... yum!
the place: oh, to be one with nature...
the people: nice, fun, kalog, witty...
the experience: incomparable! =)

we've gone camping, indiana jones, obstacle course, tree  planting (pine trees), hiking, played sports, lecture,  seminars, presentation, cultural night, bon fire and many more! bongga mga activities, food, and the people!

i enjoyed getting to know with my fellow camp mates.
i was amazed to know that they're very disciplined, driven, fun,

smart, and surely they have a long way to go.

the main purpose of the RYLA summer camp is to train the  delegates to become young leaders, and give awareness for the  betterment of our society.
and i was amazed how the speakers and the "big bosses" of the  Rotary Club shared their insights and knowledge.

i actually had the privileged to have a long conversation with some of them- sharing whatever things that we could think of......
and man, thinking how smart, successful, and not to mention how "big time" they are in their chosen field / businesses- they're actually very humble.
this is what i've been looking for these days. i got so much  inspiration from those people.

it was definitely a FRESH AIR  to breathe. and i was enlightened, have gained so much  knowledge. and the memories would be treasured forever.

the last night of the camp was a memorable one.
we had bon fire and presentation.
after the program, there's disco and sharing each others stories.

when the last day came,we had our Rotary Young Leadership Awards certificates. and the "EUREKA part" wherein each one of us had prepared speeches.

we actually got senti.
for that short span of time, we had bonding and 
made friends with one another.
we felt sad when it's time to part ways...
but time to leave and go back to our different places and home.

it's a wonderful experience.
i really had soooo much fun!
gained insights and knowledge.
i was inspired.
and most importantly,
EUREKA...!!!   i found LIGHT!  (^^,)*

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

it's been years since i wanted to change route,
to pick up the scattered pieces that's been wasted
from time to time and try to make it whole again.


but the waters of pain and frustrations seeped into
the almost dried soil of my being- which supposed to have no room for those negativity any longer.


all i want to do is fly high and free my soul.


but some things just keep on coming
and still won't stop hurting me more,
dragging me before i could begin.

i'm tired... hurt... wounded...

but as the saying goes:
"what doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

oh well...keep it coming...
perhaps i'll be stronger.
but i'll never be the same again.

senti....friday...

whenever Friday comes, i have this certain thrill within. probably because, when it comes, it means that week-end is coming and you can unwind.

but one thing which makes me excited during Fridays it's because of the FRIDAY MADNESS of Killer Bee... i'm happy whenever i hear them play 90's music...

i get sentimental...

it's the 90's songs remind me of the days when i was much younger...full of dreams..very much driven... i was looking forward for the days ahead.. full of enthusiasm to get what i want in life. those were the days when i hardly notice times slip so fast.. because i was enjoying what i was doing... i was very focused and had this strong goal. it's nice if you're doing what you want and at the same time earn from it.

unlike now, things are really complicated.

i really don't know why it's happening... it's like never ending struggle...gone to waste!

you know the feeling of you really want to do something for you to grow, learn different things which interest you and stir your brain... give you insights, wisdom, and at the same time be a better person and reach for your dreams?

but the more you're trying to move, you realize that some things are dragging you down. it was then you realize that you're lost.

things are ugly…had i known that it would be like this, i would be somewhere.


seriously, i'm in a very slow pacing circumstances.
and honestly, may panghihinayang ako sa sarili ko at this moment...

i could've been better in some things...develop & use my potentials...in some places best for me...


::: today is friday, and i really feel so senti this day...while having the 90's music on the background, reminiscing the past...when things were still great.... i can't help it but cry.  i can't be angry anymore...for the pain is too real that it makes me so  NUMB.
i wish that i'll just cry so hard... turned NUMB, and the numbness will make me INVINCIBLE. all things that's happening at the moment are "bi-polar"... which means i'm either in extreme happiness...or extreme sadness.

yes, i can take the extreme pain at the moment, for i know that the coming days would be different..

yes, i will cry hard now... until my tear ducts ran dry...even up to a point when i get dehydrated from the gallons of tears that i shed.

and soon after that, it would be sun shiny bright... extreme glory.

amen to that.

a tribute to all "DONG" & "DAY"

when i tried chatting on the MiRC (many years ago, i had this conversation that i cannot forget. so our chat conversation goes like this:

the chatter: hi ctc?
me: sure...asl plz..

the chatter: 21/ m / manila.. u?
me: 18 f davao
the chatter: bye. KATULONG!!!
me: wat??? wat do u mean?
the chatter: im not interested. u r a visayan. katulong in short.
me: you narrow-minded moron! so what if i'm a visayan??! it doesn't mean that im a katulong.
the chatter: our household helpers are all visayan.. "opo koya!" hehehehehe....
me: damn it! ur not just insulting me but the whole mindanaoans & visayans as well!!
the chatter: gtg katulong! better do your chores. "opo koya!" hahahahaha...
me: FREAK! GO TO HELL! conyo a$$!!!!!!


goodness! nag-init ulo ko dun ha...
so i stopped for a while and think about that. i mean is that really how those people from luzon think if they know that you came from visayas? or worse from mindanao?

::: so, a while ago when i was having a merienda, the t.v. was tuned to an afternoon koreanovela. (i'm not a fan of it).
of course we all know that the actors/actresses originally speak korean and it’s just dubbed tagalog by filipino dubbers. so there was a scene where the house helper was asked by the "amo" about something.
the helper said "baket koya? ako po ang nag loto nyan kanena" (as: “bakit kuya? ako po ang nag luto nyan kanina”)
darn. even on koreanovela, why the helper should have that "visayan" accent??!!

dina-dubbed na nga sa tagalog ang original korean language nila, ganun pa talaga?!


i mean how many times have you seen on television or even in movies that when a house helper or a "buchaha" talks they all have this exaggerated "visayan accent"???!
is this a stereotype that all the visayan are helpers??!

naiinis lang ako dun everytime may nakikita at naririnig akong ganun. it's somehow a little bit offensive, dont you think?

im not against being a house helper or something. in fact i admire them for having a decent job, which infact it is a hard job.
and there's nothing wrong about being visayan/mindanaoan. considering that there are so many great leaders and brilliant people whom we look up to... who are visayan/mindanaoan...countless of them for that matter....after all, we're all the same... living in the same country! i myself is a proud true blue-davaowenya.

it's okay if we sometimes laugh and not make a big deal about some people's articulation imperfections....but NOT to a point of generalizing that all visayans are like "that"... it's just not right....diba, mga dong ug day???

MABUHAY ang mga BISAYA!!! hehehehe....

HO...HO...& HU...HU... holidays

HO...HO...HO...

Yuletide season gives me certain high...
the food…the cold breeze…etc.
i like the feeling of wrapping gifts for our relatives, pamangkins, my mom's inaanak. seeing the faces of those little kids lighten up when they receive simple present gives a pure joy. and of course, the feeling of unwrapping gifts gives a different bliss too. hehe... Christmas and New Year ’s Day were celebrated w/my whole family..relatives...cousins...& friends... we were pigging out, had drinking sessions, having fun,& never slept whole night on both occassions!(^^,)*

HU...HU...HU...
and now... the season has come to an end.
back to do the work that has been long pending! i still have to make our thesis! the whole 5 chapters is assigned to me! and it should be done in like what.....? 2 days!! unbelievable! not to mention, we also have to implement our design project which is really complicated! which i don't like to think about...  but if we can't make it....sorry for us then...argh!!!! (oh God... forbid!) and many other projects on the long queue! tsk,tsk,tsk...
no articles for the school paper,no updates (for a month) on my written personal journal that i've been keeping for years!
house helper is still on vacation...who's gonna clean the house..? who's gonna do the dishes...? the laundry..? eyes on me...huwaaat??! i haven't clean my very own room!!!! my dirty clothes are piled up inside my room! it's a total disaster these days! hehehe...
(opo... manlimpyo lagi ko, Ma...) hehe... ;)
regardless of those things that should be done, what I’m doing now is relaxing... haha! well...i can't really blame my self.. i don't know why i got tired easily...hahay...it's because of the cold weather... and my back aches too! perhaps, the effect of over sleeping?! hehehe...
i wake up at noon...eat my  brunch...dvd marathon…sleep again...wake-up…lakwatsa…. hmmm...i think im becoming a sloth! im aware of that! so, i try drinking a lot of coffee just to keep me awake! it should give me that “kick” but i  guess it never works on me....

well... forget those things for a while (atleast just for this break) 'coz the top list on my new year's resolution is not to be harsh on myself, and  to spoil my self just a little bit more... (so selfless noh? hehehe...)
since this is the year that i've been long anticipating for...
gamay antos nalang jud.... yahoooooo!!!

it's a HO...HO...HO holidays after all...

HAPPY 2007 to all!!!!

"hayop" sa dating!

it was late when i was having a night bath after a long tiring day... when i grabbed the soap dish, i was surprised to find a baby lizard hiding underneath it. the creature was threatened and jump on our empty bath tub! i saw its tail wiggling! i thought I’ve hurt that lizard and cut its tail! poor little creature... lost its tail because of my carelessness.
i felt guilty seeing its cut tail wiggling and turning round and round as if it was looking for its body!!! it's weird that i felt accountable about it...  i didn't know i have sympathy for creatures that don't bother me that much.

anyway, when my mom arrived, i mentioned to her about that. and she told me that i might not have cut the lizard's tail at all! she said that it's an animal instinct of lizards to disconnect its tail to get away from its predator! and that they can still grow back its tail! (maybe some of you already knew about this)!… and i was amaze of this animal/biology fact! (yes, I’m outdated!) hehe...

oh my! i felt like i have missed all those interesting facts like this...because i was/need to be consumed by those tiresome "facts", "theories", blah...blahs....etc.,etc. of some matters I have to to deal with-- which i can't relate to… and don't even care!

Unsolicited lesson: naisip ko tuloy: mabuti pa ang butiki, kahit hayop, interesting din naman pala at may napupulot akong aral... eh ang ibang tao sa paligid-ligid (na parang hayop umasta at  parang  walang pinag-aralan! hmmpp!!)

anyway...so i searched on the internet http://www.findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_qa4128/is_200503/ai_n12412576) and found out more about these interesting stuffs:

Fact#1. Yes, Lizard can disconnect their tails from their bodies when a predator threatens Their tails are built with spaces between the bones where they can break away. It  takes a lot of time and energy for a lizard to grow its tail back, but it's better than being eaten.
Fact #2. A salamander can actually regrow arms, tails, toes, hearts, and parts of their eyes when they lose them.!!!
Fact #3. Lobsters can release entire claws in the hopes of satisfying a hungry predator. Don't worry, they grow back.
Fact# 4. Sea stars can regrow missing arms. Some sea star arms can even grow missing bodies!
Fact# 5. Octopuses can regrow tentacles that have been bitten off by predators. its tentacles have so many nerves that they can continue to crawl around after they become separated from the octopus's body. This distracts and confuses a predator so that the octopus can get away. 

P.S.
Zhandra can also grow back her torn halo and broken wings… (in time…..  ) ;p

smack it!

A couple of hundred years ago,
Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that 'til tomorrow which you can do today" he said. This is the man who discovered electricity.

You think more people would listen to what he had to say.
I don't know why we put things off,
but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure....fear of rejection...

sometimes the fear is just of making a decision,
because what if you're wrong?
What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?

          "The early bird catches the worm."
          "A stitch in time saves nine."
          "He who hesitates is lost."
We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs... heard the philosophers... heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time,
heard those poets urging us to seize the day.

Still, sometimes we have to see for ourselves.
     * We have to make our own mistakes.
      * We have to learn our own lessons.
We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore.
Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant.
That knowing is better than wondering... that waking is better than sleeping,
and even the biggest failure... even the worst...
BEAT THE HELL OUT OF NEVER TRYING.

P.S.
i got this long quote from -Dr.Grey (yah know..from that series)
i guez this makes a lot of sense, ayt? =)                      happy halloween!
                                                                           

DEAD END signs...

" i like DEAD END signs...
  i think they're kind...
  they at least have the decency
  to let you know that you're going nowhere..."
                                 -Bugs Bunny

this quote was sent to me from a friend.
i think it was quoted from bugs bunny
(yah...the "watz up doc??" cartoon character)

well, i thought about it for a while and said to my self na
"oo nga 'no.. sana may Dead End signs nalang din wherever road you go even in your life's journey... at least even in afar, you can see that you're going nowhere..
at least may time ka pa to change route... and you won't be wasting your time to go ahead even if  DEAD End na pala patutunguhan mo..."

oo nga naman... "DEAD END signs have the DECENCY to let you know that you're going nowhere..." but what if you've gone that far already...???!!
you know that the road you've chosen is dead end for you.
(in the first place, you know that you shouldn’t be there!!!)
you know that you're lost...yet you still keep on going... and goin'...
'til you realized that you've wasted so much of your time and energy...
and everything is so wasted!!

nakakainis 'yung ganun'!!! (it's soooooo sickening!!!)

you can't shift gear...turn around and change your route...  too late for you!
the only thing you can do is finish what you've started and hope that
after you've arrived in that DEAD END sign.... somewhere beside that sign, there's a little alternative road towards your destination... a destination that you've been long anticipating for...

who knows... there really is!
a short cut road to a place WHERE YOU REALLY SHOULD BE...