i love my new "baby"

i have been waiting this for so long.
and now she's finally here
....my new "baby".

she's beautiful.
unique.
like no other.
she's high maintenance,

because of her,  my lifetime savings are all gone!!!!
...as in "z-e-r-o"!  

i don't have a "real" baby yet, but para narin akong na-caesarian because of this. (huhuhu...)

but worth it.
so far, this is the most expensive thing that i've ever bought!!!
straight from my very own savings.

i'll  be turning a quarter of century old this  June 4!
(i'm old.... tsk,tsk...)

...and this is my birthday gift for myself.
(for being a good girl????!) nyahahahaha!!!!
 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! =)

i'm happy.
i deserve this.

time for a COOL CHANGE.

i love my new mitsu.

"untog" moments

i am happier these past few months.
na-untog narin ako... finally!!!!   hahahaha!!!

well, i knew from the start that it would be a
"down fall"... bad decision.
i was in a terrible nightmare!!!

surrounded by nonsense and all. i sat with the "beast".

blood & tears have been shed.

a lot of people have been hurt.
what a big pile of sh*t it has made.

.........it's been more than a year now.    TRAGIC LOVE (of 5 years). i'm starting to pick-up the pieces.

God is really good...for HE stand-by with "him " ---> (who has suffered a lot) is recovering and getting better now.

i'm still thankful. things are brighter now... everybody's living and moving on.

i know it won't be that easy... but i can do it.
WELCOME  BACK  MY  OLD  SELF........ i've been missing "-M-E-".

adam vs. kris

dili ko palabot nganong si Kris Allen ang nada-og!!!

ADAM LAMBERT's far better than him.

this is the only idol season that i've followed through out.

hayyyy....      so,so....

dili jud ko palabot.

where have all the ROCKERS gone??????! hehehe....

DEMONS are REAL

it's been a year
since a DEMON almost killed
"him."

I. C. U.
bleeding,
literaly.

my cries are worthless,
can do nothing.

and where was i ???
i sat beside the demon,
and was possessed!

perhaps i should be punished
for my stupidity!

and now, it has been clear.
a demon in rage
knows nothing about
REGRET nor CONSCIENCE.

he is self-righteous and dangerous!

leaving its deadly mark.

stab     suffer     sirens     scalpel
spleen    scream    stitches
S-C-A-R-S

BEWARE!!!
you could be the demon's next prey.

on loving BONO and U2

when i saw the ad on music channel that they're going to play music video of U2  24hours this day, i thought about spending the whole day watching television and ditch my masteral class. ahahaha..

but it's finals already, and i have a lot of things to catch up at school. after class, i hurried down to go home and had U2 tv marathon...

i like BONO... he gives this certain "ELEVATION" wooohooooo.....!!!

STUCK IN THE MOMENT

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
Tears are going nowhere baby


And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

WINDOW IN THE SKIES

The shackles are undone,        The bullets quit the gun
The heat that's in the sun,       Will keep us when there's none
The rule has been disproved,   The stone it has been moved
The grave is now a groove,      All debts are removed, ooh

Oh can't you see what love has done ?
What it's doing to me ?

Love makes strange enemies
Makes love where love may please
Soul and its striptease
Hate brought to its knees
The sky over our head
We can reach it from our bed
You let me in your heart
And out of my head, head...

Oh can't you see what love has done ?
For every heart that cries
Love left a window in the skies
And to love I rhapsodize

Oh can't you see what love has done ?
What it's doing to me ?

............. i can relate.
i was STUCK IN A MOMENT... and now i have gotten-out already.   thank God.
i'm out of it..... no more SUNDAY BLOODY SUNDAY.
it had given me enough VERTIGO  already! ......WITH OR WITHOUT YOU.
but i realized, SOMETIMES...I CAN'T MAKE IT ON MY OWN.
time heals.
and i still belive in ONE LOVE....
and when it comes..... it would be THE SWEETEST THING..... in time.

.........CHEERS TO BONO and the whole U2!!!

v-day chaperone

last feb.14, i had a date.
not just one but two dates.
yup. you read it right... T-W-O.
well...you can't blame me. i can't choose between them. that's why i had them both!

i had a date with my MOM and DAD!  (hehehe)
well, you can consider me as their date slash "chaperone".

while my sister had her own whereabouts,
i intend to be a chaperone for my parents. hayzz...
we just had dinner.
my mind is floating... and i had nothing to do, but observe other lovers that surround me...
with all the flowers, baloons, and chocolates.
i find those people cheesy. (ek!)
you really feel different when you're just the "observant"
and not the "participant" (?)     hehehe...

i had great time together with my parents.
this time, i've celebrated heart's day meaningfully.
valentine's day is a celebration of love for couples/ friends/ family.
and for me, loving means being there for each other no matter what.
like my mom & dad, i'm just so thankful for thier unique kind of love
that they have for each other.

as for me, being a chaperone ain't that bad after all.
**sigh**

happy v-day to all!    *(^,^)*

Inside-Out

Inside-Out
(Eve 6)

I would swallow my pride
I would choke on the rhines
But the lack thereof would leave me empty inside
I would swallow my doubt turn it inside out
find nothing but faith in nothing
Want to put my tender heart in a blender
Watch it spin around to a beautiful oblivion
Rendezvous then Im through with you

I burn burn like a wicker cabinet
chalk white and oh so frail
I see our time had gotten stale
The tick tock of the clock is painful
All sane and logical
I want to tear it off the wall
I hear words and clips and phrases
I think sick like ginger ale
My stomach turns and I exhale

So cal is where my mind states
but its not my state of mind
Im not as ugly sad as you
Or am I origami
Folded up and just pretend
demented as the motives in your head

Rendezvous then Im through with you.

coffee & my insanity

coffee in the morning used to give me this certain
"kick" to start-up my day.
i want it to be really black and strong for me to  be awake the whole day, and do all the things that  keeps me happy and alive.

but i stopped drinking coffee for almost a year now.
i can't drink coffee.
not anymore.
it keeps me awake all night.
and i'd end-up being depressed.
that's why, i need to be really busy, and consume all my time for whatever.
so that at the end of the day i'd be tired and can go to sleep.

no time to think for that... ghastly incident.
it still pains me.

".......if only sanity could be awakened by a shot 
of ESPRESSO "

but then, i can’t drink coffee.
not anymore.
perhaps not now.

'coz im getting INSANE.

Greatest View

i'm a grown-up lady now,
i can take care of myself.
i'm striving for independence.
for me to stand on my own feet.

but sometimes,
i still need someone to look after me,
to guide me.
someone who can manage my tantrums.
and still finds me... adorable (?)

i'm currently listening to Silverchair:
        "I'm watching you watch over me....
        and I've got the greatest view from here"
but then, the greatest view has been long gone.

so, am i really a grown-up?
perhaps NOT .
i sob like a baby now a days.
I'M STILL FOOLISH LIKE A CHILD.

...and i think i'm becoming a CYNIC.
darn.

Nights in Rodanthe

I've been waiting for months to see this movie!
and then it came, i struggle for the last minute and called up the cinema to ask if it would be extended for next week, but it won't be.

so i hurried down to the theater after work, only to find out that the cinemas were closed for a seminar. grrrr..so i went to another mall. there... at last.

Nights in Rodanthe is an unashamedly romantic and likable drama about love, loss, and second chances...
a.) it's based on Nicholas Sparks novel.
b.) Richard Gere is still handsome! =)

i cried 4+1 bucket of tears... inside the cinema. hahaha! shame.

it's tag line is:
"it's never too late for second chances..."

but then again for me,
sometimes there would never be second chances anymore.
maybe not now.... maybe not ever.
tragic.
sad.


my favorite line:
"there is a different kind of love, when it gives you the courage to be better than you are, not lesser than you are. Makes you feel anything is possible...."
---->   (asa pa ako??? ha!)

what a tearjerker film.
im still sobbing.
darn.