i surprised my mother a party on her golden birthday last October 29, 2010.
i enjoyed preparing things,
from the invitation card, to the venue, cake, baloons, food, and all.
(ang sarap pala maging organizer)
...it was worth my 1 month salary?
c'mmon...she deserves more... okay??? (panagsa lang bitaw ni!) ;)
i was happy to see her surrounded by our family, her friends, and her officemates.
we had a blast!
she deserves a bash.
she asked me bakit ko naman daw ibinulgar sa lahat edad nya??
hey, does this look 50 years old to you?
c'mmon.... who am i kidding???!!
we look like we're just sisters!
hehehe.... ;p
Happy Golden Birthday Mom! ^_^
for the past two days, i literally don't have a "V-O-I-C-E"
with: cough, flu, back aches... and other aches, such as: ka ek-ekan? hehe...
this is due to:
- 1. weather condition
2. my regular job # 1 which also includes answering phone calls, and attending employees' needs
3. my part time job # 2 which requires explaining (individually)
4. my part time job # 3 which requires conducting group seminar/ training... in short, TALKING....
it's hard when you don't have a voice. although i am not really that "talkative", it seems like i am now "muted".
because of this:
- ...when communicating at the office, i just chat them.
- ...when communicating with my friends, i just text them
- ...when commuting on public vehicle, i just tap using a coin
to stop at my destination.
it's hard NOT to express myself thru words at anytime i wanted to.
but then, if ever we had the chance to meet and talk...
i will just let my EYES do all the talking,
and perhaps i would really, really force my esophagus and larynx
...just to whisper " i miss you"
..
..
damn.
..
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change,
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?
Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation,
She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land
But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong?
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance
Five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?
And did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there.
for 20++ years of my life, i had no idea what's my blood type.
and i was amazed yesterday finding-out what my blood-type is.
Zhandra's blood type: AB+
so, i did some research about it.
they say that:
in Japan, the idea of blood type as personality type is so popular that Japanese ask “What's your blood type?” about as often as Americans ask “What's your sign?”.
Therefore, knowing your blood type is like knowing your astrological sign.
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Bloody fact # 1: Type AB+ is one of the rarest blood type. only about 2% of people all over the world who have this type of blood.
Zhandra's fact # 1: guess, i'm also rare and one of a kind... need i say more? ;p
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Bloody fact # 2: Some people think blood type tells about personality.
Legend has it that AB is thoughtful and emotional.
Zhandra's fact # 2: ahem! agree... i'm very thoughtful! hehehe... and emotional too.
but, i don't want to be that emotional now.
(being too emotional is making me insane!)
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Bloody fact # 3: if Type O– blood is considered the “universal donor”
because it can be donated to people of any blood type.
While, Type AB+ blood is considered the “universal recipient”...
because people with this type can receive any blood type.
but then, AB+ people can only give blood to the same AB+ people.
Zhandra's fact # 3: hmmm... perhaps this shows that i am lovable? (joke! ;p )
...different kind of people can give love and affection to me.
but then, i can only give my heart to a CERTAIN ONE PERSON....
...who is a MALE-VERSION of ME.
is there such kind?
i guess it's bloody difficult to find one! haha... ;p
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...
.....
to see him getting thinner breaks my heart.
Lord, he's such a wonderful person...
and he deserves all the best in this world.
i'm praying for his happiness and health.
even if it doesn't involve me anymore.
i have to accept the reality and let it go already.
Lord, just take good care of Andy...
please?
...
.....
ang hirap pala gumala ng walang renewed registration.
kahit ikaw ma-bangga
or ikaw maka-bangga
wala kang habol.
kung tutuusin,
mas malaki pa ang penalty mo sa LTO kung mahuli ka
kumpara sa ipa-renew mo nalang...
diba?
so, bakit di nalang ipa-renew?
ganun din yan sa buhay-buhay eh.
ba't ka pa dun sa malabo,
kung meron namang malinaw?
ba't ka pa dun sa malaki ang consequences,
kung meron namang klaro na pamamaraan?
wala pang sakit sa ulo.
.....ako kaya?
bat di ko parin magawa-gawa?
kasi ang tigas ng ulo ko
and I always learn the lesson the hard way?
wag naman sana.
1.) she was once POSSESSIVE
but now is there someone she can call "really hers" ?
2.) she was once had an ASSURANCE
but now, anything can change in a snap. she wonders if there's such thing as certainty?
3.) she was once so SECURED
she used to be the one and only, but now all she can hope for is to be the LAST one.
4.) she was once a PRINCESS
she does not settle for anything less, but now she has learned to bargain and compromise.
5.) she was once SPOILED
but now, where have those over-flowing care and pamper (that she used to have) gone?
6.) she was once a PLANNER
she used to have "to attain lists" but she has lost her drive and lost her long-term goals, all she ever focus is what to do for the "day"... really superficial.
7.) she was once a CONQUEROR
she used to rule... "what Zhandra wants, Zhandra gets" was her mantra. but now she learned to stoop down, and accept all the hurt. it's clear that she's been conquered.
guess, the table has been turned.
it's either a curse or a blessing...
is this really where she belongs?
who knows?
QUE SERA SERA...
WHATEVER WILL BE... WILL BE.
staying with someone even if you know you can't be together forever,
for a lot of reasons,
...is like staying under the rain
it feels good
but you know it's gonna make you sick.
(but then again, she's hard-headed and nothing can dictate her feelings.
who knows what tomorrow may bring?
she's still hoping that things would turn-out to be better in the future.)
she'd rather get sick and cherish the rain.
Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
It's an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on heat,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
It's sad but true,
I'd rather be with you
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
Before too long.
So little time so much to do,
I wanna spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
Said I've been celibate for years,
Not out of choice there's no-one here,
See I can't get my end away,
Another ordinary day,
And I've love to see a little more of you,
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity
I know you're busy,
But we all need somebody - before too long
You're clothes would look better
on my bedroom floor, bedroom floor.
as much as i want to open the already closed door,
it cannot be...
any longer.
it's hard.
and it's beyond my controll.
so, i'll just let it be.
windows are starting to open-up.
i think it's better for me to embrace
the countless possibilities.
Lord, i need your guidance.
just tell me if IT'S TIME.
