Here, There, and Everywhere

To lead a better life I need my love to be here...

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of his hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there

There, running my hands through his hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking but he doesn't know she's there

I want him everywhere and if he's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love him is to need him everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching his eyes and hoping I'm always there

I want him everywhere and if he's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love him is to need him everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching his eyes and hoping I'm always therer

To be there and everywhere
Here, there and everywhere

my 2011 Indulgence List

Zhandra's 2011 To Do List:


1.) master the art of driving a motorcycle (~ it's my suppressed passion, i guess)

2.) go aero-dancing/ exercise (~~~ fire dancing too! perhaps?)

3.) engage to sports again: back to taekwondo and/or biking (~ freesbie looks interesting too! hehe)

4.) teach algebra or literature (.....can I? puhleezzz???)

5.) enroll a formal baking/ cooking class

6.) more travels (...hopefully)

7.) meet interesting and inspiring people

8.) more bottoms-up! (~~~ syempre! ;p)

Zhandra's New Year's Resolution:

Well.... we all know: LIFE IS TOO SHORT.

So, for 2011...

I won't be holding myself back anymore...

so, go.... and I-N-D-U-L-G-E. ;)

the Cavite experience

i never thought my stay at Cavite would be so much memorable.

i did not expect that those people there could be so warm.
though i only stayed there for days, i had a glimpse of their lifestyle...

it was inspiring to see:

~~ a tight family knit...a family full of asaran and kulitan. (so much fun!)

~~ an ongoing friendship since childhood... together with the mistahs.

~~ a grandmother who is sweet, has sense of humor and a groovy lola at 75 years old...who also likes to cook yummy food.

~~ playful and spoiled doggies who are adorable. (baky, tandy, empy...etc.)

ahmmmm...pwede magpa adopt narin 'dun? hehehe...

C - chizee chizeedoodle
A - amazingly adorable
V - vacation vavavoom
I - intensely inviting
T - top of the toppestworld
E - exhillirating experience   : )

ODD NUMBERS....Happy ODD-lidays!!!

i attended a baby shower party of a friend.
and when i got there, i see... ahmmm... COUPLES.

great thing that the host reserved a seat for me beside her. i was perfectly fine with the set-up because most of the host's friends are also friends of mine.

so there we were busy chit-chatting and updating each others life...

couple # 1: "The Host and her Husband"
i'm happy for what they have become. i have witnessed their love story... their break-up when they were still boyfriend-girlfriend, reconciliation, engagement, wedding, a baby shower...and finally a baby due next week.
whew! time really flies.

couple # 2: "The Discriminating Woman & The Funny Guy"
the woman of discriminating taste, has finally found the one who can make her giggle and laugh, and we're happy that wedding bells are up for them next year.

couple # 3: "The Emotional Hang-up Woman and Her New S.O."
the woman who was like me before has finally found  a new significant other. she looks so much, much prettier now huh... *sigh*

couple # 4: "The Present and  Future"
the couple who are also celebrating the house that they have purchased...... (hati sila installment monthly. "this is it" na jud??? sweet.)

after the party, the host asked for the bill.
the waiter came and asked her "ilan kayo ma'am? 13 noh?

the host: "paki bilang daw kung 13 nga"
the waiter: "oo, 13 kayo... kasi SIYA lang (pointing to me) ang walang partner."

me: looking at the waiter with a smile...
(on my mind: YAWERTS NI NA WAITER... PAKI-ALAMERO!!!! grrrr...)  haha ;p
me: "ah...oo nga ODD number."

is this some kind of a DISCRIMINATION of BEING "ODD?"?! hmmmmf.

ODD NUMBER: definition: (mathematics) A natural number not divisible by 2.

on my mind:  "eh kung kakain kaya ako ulit para ma charge for 2 ako...counted kaya yun??? or i-libre ko kaya yung engot na waiter na 'yon para sarado 14 na kami? ha??? ano???  EVEN na kami??! lolz... :)

nah.... i got no problem being ODD for a couple of years already.

it's actually cool.

HAPPY ODD-LIDAYS

TO ALL ODD MEN AND WOMEN!!! *(^,^)*

hahahaha... ;p

goodbye my old "BABY"

the first time i saw you, i knew you're all that i wanted.
i fell in love with your sporty look... so crisp... so manly.

all my savings i invested on you. and for someone like me, who needed to work hard just to have you, i felt a sense of pride and accomplishment.

and from then on, you were my baby.

we had a share of good times together. our personality fits, and seems like we were a perfect combination. those good times when we just hit the road with the loud stereo on...

we freed our soul and just ROCK AND ROLL!!!
you were mine and i was yours.

no one is allowed to touch you and ride with you. i remember the time when i allowed other person to drive you, and you just blew your tire off and drain your battery. perhaps you just wanted me... and no one else.

perhaps it came to a point
that we shut ourselves to the world and created our own little perfect world.

but then as time goes by, i realized that i could not afford to maintain you any longer. there were times when you had your tantrums. i just could not understand you any more. you busted your self again, and i just didn't know what to do. so i left you on the road alone.
i could not take care of you any longer.

for years, you just pamper and spoil me too much. i was your PRINCESS.

that's why i became selfish and a self-centered brat on you.

and perhaps, that's why at times when you needed me, i could no longer reciprocate.
it became a cycle, and became exhausting. maybe we just outgrew each other.


and at that point, i decided to let go of you already.

and for just a month, someone was interested on you. the new buyer paid me whole. it was the time that reality hits me...

you were no longer mine. just like that.

but then for two months, the new owner still parked you on my garage.
so, we still got each other...even if you were not technically "mine".

for that span of time, i saw your rapid transformation.
from the unique sporty black/green combination color that i fell in love with, you now became a formal metallic blue.


from the lowered drag-racing look that i thought was HOT, you're now lifted-up and look like any regular sedan on the street.

and that's the time i told myself...

"you're no longer my baby that i used to know."

remember the time when i told you that "it ain't over 'til it's over" ?

well, i guess it's finally over now.

in the first place, i was the one who decided to let  go of you. i'm sorry for the time when i was not there when you needed me the most.

and now that you're in the arms of your new someone,
i just hope that she will take good care of you... more than i took care of you.

i hope that you are happy with her.
i'm just fine.

i'm letting go of you my old  baby MITSU.
it's final.

G-O-O-D-- B-Y-E.

P.S. :
it's a final goodbye...
* literally and figuratively *
...it's also an analogy...
so, just read between the lines. (^_^)

mom's golden birthday

i surprised my mother a party on her golden birthday last October 29, 2010.
i enjoyed preparing things,

from the invitation card, to the venue, cake, baloons, food, and all.

(ang sarap pala maging organizer)

...it was worth my 1 month salary?
c'mmon...she deserves more... okay??? (panagsa lang bitaw ni!) ;)

i was happy to see her surrounded by our family, her friends, and her officemates.

we had a blast!

she deserves a bash.

she asked me bakit ko naman daw ibinulgar sa lahat edad nya??

hey, does this look 50 years old to you?

c'mmon.... who am i kidding???!!

we look like we're just sisters!

hehehe....   ;p

Happy Golden Birthday Mom! ^_^

" muted "

for the past two days, i literally don't have a "V-O-I-C-E"
with: cough, flu, back aches... and other aches, such as: ka ek-ekan? hehe...
this is due to:

• 1. weather condition
  2. my regular job # 1 which also includes answering phone calls, and attending employees' needs
  3. my part time job # 2 which requires explaining (individually)
  4. my part time job # 3 which requires conducting group seminar/ training... in short, TALKING....

it's hard when you don't have a voice. although i am not really that "talkative", it seems like i am now  "muted".
because of this:

• ...when communicating at the office, i just chat them.
• ...when communicating with my friends, i just text them
• ...when commuting on public vehicle, i just tap using a coin
  to stop at my destination. 

it's hard NOT to express myself thru words at anytime i wanted  to.

but then, if ever we had the chance to meet and talk...

i will just let my EYES do all the talking,
and perhaps i would really, really force my esophagus and larynx

...just to whisper " i miss you"

..

..

 damn.

..

Drops of Jupiter

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change,

Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?


Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation,
She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong?

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance
Five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?

And did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there.

What is your Blood Type?

for 20++ years of my life, i had no idea what's my blood type.
and i was amazed yesterday finding-out  what my blood-type is.

Zhandra's blood type:  AB+

so, i did some research about it.
they say that:
in Japan, the idea of blood type as  personality type is so popular that  Japanese ask “What's your blood type?” about as often as Americans ask  “What's your sign?”.
Therefore, knowing your blood type is like knowing your astrological sign.

- - - -
Bloody fact # 1: Type AB+ is one of the rarest blood type. only about 2% of  people all  over the world who have this type of blood.

Zhandra's fact # 1: guess, i'm also  rare and one of a kind... need i say more? ;p

- - - -
Bloody fact # 2: Some people think blood type tells about personality.
Legend has it that AB is thoughtful and emotional.

Zhandra's fact # 2: ahem! agree... i'm very thoughtful! hehehe... and emotional too.
but, i don't want to be that emotional now.
(being too emotional is making me insane!)

- - - -
Bloody fact # 3: if Type O– blood is  considered  the “universal donor”
because it can be  donated to people of  any blood type.
While, Type AB+ blood is considered the “universal recipient”...
because people with this type can receive any blood  type.
but then, AB+ people can only give blood to the same AB+ people.


Zhandra's fact # 3: hmmm... perhaps this shows that i am lovable? (joke! ;p )
...different kind of people can give love and affection to me.
but then, i can only give my heart to a CERTAIN ONE PERSON....

...who is a MALE-VERSION of ME.

is there such kind?

i guess it's bloody difficult to find one! haha... ;p

- - - -

...it still breaks my heart

...

.....

to see him getting thinner breaks my heart.

Lord, he's such a wonderful person...

and he deserves all the best in this world.


i'm praying for his happiness and health.

even if it doesn't involve me anymore.

i have to accept the reality and let it go already.

Lord, just take good care of Andy...

please?

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