ODD NUMBERS....Happy ODD-lidays!!!

i attended a baby shower party of a friend.
and when i got there, i see... ahmmm... COUPLES.

great thing that the host reserved a seat for me beside her. i was perfectly fine with the set-up because most of the host's friends are also friends of mine.

so there we were busy chit-chatting and updating each others life...

couple # 1: "The Host and her Husband"
i'm happy for what they have become. i have witnessed their love story... their break-up when they were still boyfriend-girlfriend, reconciliation, engagement, wedding, a baby shower...and finally a baby due next week.
whew! time really flies.

couple # 2: "The Discriminating Woman & The Funny Guy"
the woman of discriminating taste, has finally found the one who can make her giggle and laugh, and we're happy that wedding bells are up for them next year.

couple # 3: "The Emotional Hang-up Woman and Her New S.O."
the woman who was like me before has finally found  a new significant other. she looks so much, much prettier now huh... *sigh*

couple # 4: "The Present and  Future"
the couple who are also celebrating the house that they have purchased...... (hati sila installment monthly. "this is it" na jud??? sweet.)

after the party, the host asked for the bill.
the waiter came and asked her "ilan kayo ma'am? 13 noh?

the host: "paki bilang daw kung 13 nga"
the waiter: "oo, 13 kayo... kasi SIYA lang (pointing to me) ang walang partner."

me: looking at the waiter with a smile...
(on my mind: YAWERTS NI NA WAITER... PAKI-ALAMERO!!!! grrrr...)  haha ;p
me: "ah...oo nga ODD number."

is this some kind of a DISCRIMINATION of BEING "ODD?"?! hmmmmf.

ODD NUMBER: definition: (mathematics) A natural number not divisible by 2.

on my mind:  "eh kung kakain kaya ako ulit para ma charge for 2 ako...counted kaya yun??? or i-libre ko kaya yung engot na waiter na 'yon para sarado 14 na kami? ha??? ano???  EVEN na kami??! lolz... :)

nah.... i got no problem being ODD for a couple of years already.

it's actually cool.

HAPPY ODD-LIDAYS

TO ALL ODD MEN AND WOMEN!!! *(^,^)*

hahahaha... ;p

goodbye my old "BABY"

the first time i saw you, i knew you're all that i wanted.
i fell in love with your sporty look... so crisp... so manly.

all my savings i invested on you. and for someone like me, who needed to work hard just to have you, i felt a sense of pride and accomplishment.

and from then on, you were my baby.

we had a share of good times together. our personality fits, and seems like we were a perfect combination. those good times when we just hit the road with the loud stereo on...

we freed our soul and just ROCK AND ROLL!!!
you were mine and i was yours.

no one is allowed to touch you and ride with you. i remember the time when i allowed other person to drive you, and you just blew your tire off and drain your battery. perhaps you just wanted me... and no one else.

perhaps it came to a point
that we shut ourselves to the world and created our own little perfect world.

but then as time goes by, i realized that i could not afford to maintain you any longer. there were times when you had your tantrums. i just could not understand you any more. you busted your self again, and i just didn't know what to do. so i left you on the road alone.
i could not take care of you any longer.

for years, you just pamper and spoil me too much. i was your PRINCESS.

that's why i became selfish and a self-centered brat on you.

and perhaps, that's why at times when you needed me, i could no longer reciprocate.
it became a cycle, and became exhausting. maybe we just outgrew each other.


and at that point, i decided to let go of you already.

and for just a month, someone was interested on you. the new buyer paid me whole. it was the time that reality hits me...

you were no longer mine. just like that.

but then for two months, the new owner still parked you on my garage.
so, we still got each other...even if you were not technically "mine".

for that span of time, i saw your rapid transformation.
from the unique sporty black/green combination color that i fell in love with, you now became a formal metallic blue.


from the lowered drag-racing look that i thought was HOT, you're now lifted-up and look like any regular sedan on the street.

and that's the time i told myself...

"you're no longer my baby that i used to know."

remember the time when i told you that "it ain't over 'til it's over" ?

well, i guess it's finally over now.

in the first place, i was the one who decided to let  go of you. i'm sorry for the time when i was not there when you needed me the most.

and now that you're in the arms of your new someone,
i just hope that she will take good care of you... more than i took care of you.

i hope that you are happy with her.
i'm just fine.

i'm letting go of you my old  baby MITSU.
it's final.

G-O-O-D-- B-Y-E.

P.S. :
it's a final goodbye...
* literally and figuratively *
...it's also an analogy...
so, just read between the lines. (^_^)

mom's golden birthday

i surprised my mother a party on her golden birthday last October 29, 2010.
i enjoyed preparing things,

from the invitation card, to the venue, cake, baloons, food, and all.

(ang sarap pala maging organizer)

...it was worth my 1 month salary?
c'mmon...she deserves more... okay??? (panagsa lang bitaw ni!) ;)

i was happy to see her surrounded by our family, her friends, and her officemates.

we had a blast!

she deserves a bash.

she asked me bakit ko naman daw ibinulgar sa lahat edad nya??

hey, does this look 50 years old to you?

c'mmon.... who am i kidding???!!

we look like we're just sisters!

hehehe....   ;p

Happy Golden Birthday Mom! ^_^

" muted "

for the past two days, i literally don't have a "V-O-I-C-E"
with: cough, flu, back aches... and other aches, such as: ka ek-ekan? hehe...
this is due to:

• 1. weather condition
  2. my regular job # 1 which also includes answering phone calls, and attending employees' needs
  3. my part time job # 2 which requires explaining (individually)
  4. my part time job # 3 which requires conducting group seminar/ training... in short, TALKING....

it's hard when you don't have a voice. although i am not really that "talkative", it seems like i am now  "muted".
because of this:

• ...when communicating at the office, i just chat them.
• ...when communicating with my friends, i just text them
• ...when commuting on public vehicle, i just tap using a coin
  to stop at my destination. 

it's hard NOT to express myself thru words at anytime i wanted  to.

but then, if ever we had the chance to meet and talk...

i will just let my EYES do all the talking,
and perhaps i would really, really force my esophagus and larynx

...just to whisper " i miss you"

..

..

 damn.

..

Drops of Jupiter

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair,
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change,

Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?


Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation,
She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong?

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance
Five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?

And did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there.

What is your Blood Type?

for 20++ years of my life, i had no idea what's my blood type.
and i was amazed yesterday finding-out  what my blood-type is.

Zhandra's blood type:  AB+

so, i did some research about it.
they say that:
in Japan, the idea of blood type as  personality type is so popular that  Japanese ask “What's your blood type?” about as often as Americans ask  “What's your sign?”.
Therefore, knowing your blood type is like knowing your astrological sign.

- - - -
Bloody fact # 1: Type AB+ is one of the rarest blood type. only about 2% of  people all  over the world who have this type of blood.

Zhandra's fact # 1: guess, i'm also  rare and one of a kind... need i say more? ;p

- - - -
Bloody fact # 2: Some people think blood type tells about personality.
Legend has it that AB is thoughtful and emotional.

Zhandra's fact # 2: ahem! agree... i'm very thoughtful! hehehe... and emotional too.
but, i don't want to be that emotional now.
(being too emotional is making me insane!)

- - - -
Bloody fact # 3: if Type O– blood is  considered  the “universal donor”
because it can be  donated to people of  any blood type.
While, Type AB+ blood is considered the “universal recipient”...
because people with this type can receive any blood  type.
but then, AB+ people can only give blood to the same AB+ people.


Zhandra's fact # 3: hmmm... perhaps this shows that i am lovable? (joke! ;p )
...different kind of people can give love and affection to me.
but then, i can only give my heart to a CERTAIN ONE PERSON....

...who is a MALE-VERSION of ME.

is there such kind?

i guess it's bloody difficult to find one! haha... ;p

- - - -

...it still breaks my heart

...

.....

to see him getting thinner breaks my heart.

Lord, he's such a wonderful person...

and he deserves all the best in this world.


i'm praying for his happiness and health.

even if it doesn't involve me anymore.

i have to accept the reality and let it go already.

Lord, just take good care of Andy...

please?

...
.....

Driving Without Renewed Registration

ang hirap pala gumala ng walang renewed registration.

kahit ikaw ma-bangga
or ikaw maka-bangga

wala kang habol.

kung tutuusin,
mas malaki pa ang penalty mo sa LTO kung mahuli ka
kumpara sa ipa-renew mo nalang...
diba?

so, bakit di nalang ipa-renew?

ganun din yan sa buhay-buhay eh.

ba't ka pa dun sa malabo,
kung meron namang malinaw?

ba't ka pa dun sa malaki ang consequences,

kung meron namang klaro na pamamaraan?
wala pang sakit sa ulo.

.....ako kaya?
bat di ko parin magawa-gawa?

kasi ang tigas ng ulo ko
and I always learn the lesson the hard way?

wag naman sana.

Que Sera Sera

1.) she was once POSSESSIVE
           but now is there someone she can call "really hers" ?

2.) she was once  had an ASSURANCE
           but now, anything can change in a snap. she wonders if there's such thing as certainty?

3.) she was once so SECURED
           she used to be the one and only, but now all she can hope for is to be the LAST one.

4.) she was once a PRINCESS
           she does not settle for anything less, but now she has learned to bargain and compromise.

5.) she was once SPOILED
           but now, where have those over-flowing care and pamper (that she used to have) gone?

6.) she was once a PLANNER
          she used to have "to attain lists" but she has lost her drive and lost her long-term goals, all she ever focus is what to do for the "day"... really superficial.

7.) she was once a CONQUEROR
          she used to rule... "what Zhandra wants, Zhandra gets" was her mantra. but now she learned to stoop down, and accept all the hurt. it's clear that she's been conquered.

guess, the table has been turned.
it's either a curse or a blessing...
is this really where she belongs?
who knows?
QUE SERA SERA...
WHATEVER WILL BE... WILL BE.

a different kind of amor

staying with someone even if you know you can't be together forever,

for a lot of reasons,

...is like staying under the rain

it feels good

but you know it's gonna make you sick.

(but then again, she's hard-headed and  nothing can dictate her feelings. 

who knows what tomorrow may bring?

she's still hoping that things would turn-out to be better in the future.)

she'd rather get sick and cherish the rain.

So Little Time

Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
It's an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on heat,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
It's sad but true,
I'd rather be with you

Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
Before too long.

So little time so much to do,
I wanna spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.

Said I've been celibate for years,
Not out of choice there's no-one here,
See I can't get my end away,
Another ordinary day,
And I've love to see a little more of you,
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity
I know you're busy,
But we all need somebody - before too long

You're clothes would look better
on my bedroom floor, bedroom floor.

..on closed door and endless possibilites

as much as i want to open the already closed door,
it cannot be...
any longer.

it's hard.

and it's beyond my controll.

so, i'll just let it be.

windows are starting to open-up.

i think it's better for me to embrace

the countless possibilities.

Lord, i need your guidance.

just tell me if IT'S TIME.

...busted tire, weakened soul

...my car's tire is busted; 
                    my heart is wounded.

...my battery is drained; 
                    my soul is weakened.

                     beat that!

stranded overnight.
leaving behind. 

IT'S A SIGN.


it's time...
                  to let go.
                  to move-on.

...it ain't over 'til it's over

Here we are still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love

              So many tears I've cried
              So much pain inside
              But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
              SO MANY YEARS WE'VE TRIED
              To keep our love alive
              But baby it ain't over 'til it's over

How many times
Did we give up
But we always worked things out
And all my doubts and fears
Kept me wondering, yeah
If I'd always, always be in love 

               So many tears I've cried
               So much pain inside
               Baby It ain't over 'til it's over

Andy, SO MANY YEARS WE'VE TRIED

and kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over.